I think I need to take a break from the entire trans community, every single part of it, to think and digest on my own gender.
Which means a break from tumblr too.
There’s too much vocab, too many pressures in multiple directions, too many “trannier than thou” bullshit, too many pushed narratives, too much transmisogyny, too much cissexism.
Too many complicating things when I just need to get back to ME and figure out how much is the fight for my existence, how much is the internal core of me, how much is forced narratives and just understand myself.
And as much as I love you all, I can’t do it with you. I can’t. The water just gets muddy and I have to dive so deep.
Battlegendered, nonbinary, binary, woman, something else, etc
Fuck, I just need to know.
I need to know me.