the-last-saffron:

treebeardoffangorn:

That once you’re clean X amount of time, you’re “recovered”. No, stop yourself, I am still a recovering addict. I am a recovering addict because I still get cravings, I still thing of getting drunk when life gets stressful for me. I’m probably never going to get away from that. The amount of people I know who consider themselves “recovered” instead of “recovering” is miniscule, because a lot of us still crave that escapism, that way out. Some of us even have neurotypes prone to routine and obsessive behaviours that make addiction something that’s embedded in us. So no, I’m not recovered, I’m sober 3 years, 7 months and one day, but I am not, and likely never will be fully functioning, and I don’t want a reminder of that. This is also the moment where I remind folks that addict shaming/blaming is super ableist. This includes terms like “alkie” or “junkie” that demean a person down to just being their addiction. This includes when straightedge douchefucks say the latest celebrity overdose “deserved it”. Addicts are human, we are varied, and we deserve respect, and fuck if I won’t fight for it. Some of the best human beings I’ve ever met used to shoot heroin under overpasses and drink themselves to sleep every night, and odds are if you’d seen them at that point you wouldn’t have given a single fuck about their entire existences. So yeah, if you’re not an addict, don’t act like you understand us, and treat us like fucking people. </rant>

as a recovering addict, i just want to say thank you for this post.

i didn’t give up my humanity when i became addicted to painkillers and i won’t let anyone forget that.

Thank you for this.

Too many people ignore the fact that this isn’t ever gonna go away, that I’m never gonna be free of these feelings, of the cravings and the troubles. It’s been over a year and I still need to drink, still want to drink and still have to fight the urge to drink.

And too many people get that look in their eyes when they find out. That look that says to me that they don’t think I’m worth anything anymore.