Why I will ultimately die alone

I’m indecisive, broken as shit, afraid of commitment, connection, success and failure in relationships, love and sometimes even sex and yet crave all those things like they were necessary to breathe.

I need social interaction but it becomes so overwhelming (especially when it’s deep and caring and close) and then I freak and need to be away from everyone and actually want to die from that sometimes.

Which leads to a disturbing pattern of I WANT I WANT I WANT OMG I SUDDENLY DON’T WANT BRB DISAPPEARING FOR A WHILE

And people get hurt.

So, I suck at all the things, basically and no one should ever love me for their own sake. Etc etc etc

  1. Date Posted Icon 1st October 2012
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  1. hillaryclintonsapprentice said: yes. and i have a hard time seeing that people love/like me.
  2. victorianaaa said: I know the feeling(s). :(
  3. thelittlegrayghost said: You are wonderful, and it’s okay if you don’t feel good about yourself sometimes, but know that you are valuable and good the way you are even if right now is bad. <3
  4. singleactionjack said: I sorta kinda know how that feels. Sucks feeling like that.
  5. post-moderntease said: basically me i resonate so much with this and thank you for sharing it kinsey
  6. 123456789ferret said: :( *hugs* if you want them
  7. youarenotyou said: oh, you too? :(
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